What makes a Chem Engineer.

Deadlines. After meeting one deadline, we have another. We work directly after we sleep and after we eat, and what spare time we have, we have to prep ourselves for the next deadline and that doesnt mean socializing and chilling.

We socialize with temperature, pressure and reactors and chemical components. And is anyone going to stop me from rambling on? No, because the facts are all there. Our face-book statuses are about how much agony we're in and our wardrobes are clad with tees and jeans and in the cold countries, hoodies.

To wear heels into a lab session, we are questioned if we're in the right place. And we're expected to be fresh and ready and smart and quick to respond , when we dont even have time to sleep. I have a friend who mistook her toothpaste for her facial cleanser.

We are expected to do things independently and when we do show signs of reliance, the four fingers get pointed at us for choosing what we thought was right for us.

The highlights are that we pride ourselves as being emotionally strong, but others view us as emotionally deficit and that we've lost all sense of feminity. Unlike others who vent and whine to their besties, our personal problems stay personal and we attempt to solve them on our own , lest its pointed out and thrown out in the open by our peers.

On a personal note, I'm drained and spent and the once seemingly bright prospect is just that it's going to end in a year's time.

And what do I do next, that's a huge question. Because as much as I crave for materialism, it doesnt happen if u just sit there and wait for it to happen, lest ur parents / grandparents own land/factories/businesses and what have you.

So money, why do you complicate things and as much as I want to say, I'm happy without lots of you, I really cant.

Fetish Night and Eve

I partied for 2 friday nights consecutively and I blew close to 300 AUD due to cover charge , cab fares and party-wear. Did I enjoy myself? Well, yes and no.

Fetish Sex it up party was eye-opener in a way . We saw strippers smearing cream on their boobies and men faces buried in them. And naked butts galore and very hot muscular men.
One thing's for sure, those who had whatever they have, flaunted it and no complaints !

It wasnt an adult sex party so no sleazy details following that but other friends that night were displeased with the racism in the club so we headed to an 90% asian club -eve . Earlier on I went to fusion. so, nothing much there except aching feet and the usual (:

I miss partying w 'you-know-who-you-are' ! Considering, my energy level has dropped significantly and my tastes have upped a notch.
With friends , the level of close-ness has to be there to have an awesome night out.
I'm pass the oooh-i-wanna-meet-hot-guys phase because, damn right i've played enough when i was younger.

My idea of a good time, is to party and drink w close friends and go insanely tipsy together ,sharing woes and jubilation and see who gets the next drink from an unknown stranger.

Right now, I want to go to clubs w live performances, say Lady Gaga performing live because nothing beats that kind of atmosphere and trust me, for celebs like this to perform in the club, you're definition of clubbing changes.

Not to sound aristocratic and snobbish, but I've gone way past trying to hook attention from strangers , lest its a frequent club-goer and like this week I buy drinks , next week you buy drinks, kind of camadarie (:

With that said, I'm looking forward to another friday night, just partying with friends and hoping at the end of the night, we enjoyed ourselves , chased all worries and stress away and rejuvenate to embark on another fight for survival in the next week.

Now I'm beginning to understand, why people start to out-grow the things they used to love.
It just happens with time , age and frequency.

In my head .

• Breaky : Oreo biscuits + Milk
• Lunch : Fried Beehoon
• Dinner : Dumplings + Pao

On an extreme tight budget and stamina is like shit and I wanna join the gym (saving up)since I cant control my eating and I eat unhealthily these days.

Went to philip island , took pics but its all in angeline's camera and i aint sure if she's gonna upload it since internet usage here is all capped.

Many requests to go sing k but .... none for clubbing . -.-

Tons of household chores but thank god the messy people will be gone for a week. Which means to say, I get to stay in a clean environment for one week. So lazy to do laundry though. My hands have all lost their delicate & smoothness.

Maybe at times I'm critical and still living in the shadow of others. I need somemore me -time to clear my head.