Driven by the driven

Met up with Jiahan and awesome news is that he is 1 guy who has it all planned out and so focussed on getting what he wants .
Doing a industrial attachment thingy now whereby he takes up a job and this replaces 4 modules . No exams , Paid 700 aud = 2100 ringgit A WEEK and that amounts to 8400 a MTH .
In my eyes, he is successful already. Future is like glowing , freaking brightly , for this guy, I need to wear shades just by looking at him.

I went to the Engineering Expo and no surprises there, I need to be a PR FIRST before I can get a decent job.

I've been busy watching HOW I MET YOUR MOTHER and THE SECRET LIFE OF A LONDON CALL GIRL acted by BILLIE PIPER. Sexy stuff, and on a sidenote, another amazing fast cash-making career - Social Escort. Rate's like 300 per HOUR and they want beauty with brains due to the high-flying clientele market. We're talking big shots here like CEOs and stuff. And its not always about the sleeping . ;p

I miss my friends and a lil of home. BUT looking on the bright side of things, its just another 1 and 1/2 years and soon to be 1 year, and before I know it, I'll be begging my academic school life here to not come to an end.

Sometimes, we just got to stop fighting against the odds and make things difficult for ourselves.
Let it flow as it comes .

Back to work (:

My future plans?

Issue arising as to whether or not I'm going to transfer back at the end of the year.
Dad oppose, Mum's all for it .
Me on the other hand, am on the fence.

The thing that's holding me back - Issues with Malaysian side with regards to my electives. If I'm forced to extend another semester, then forget it.

Nights are spent trying to fall asleep though I'm dead tired. Mind's running wildly like a hamster on a treadmill.

New thing I did this wk : I went for hiphop class associated with Monash Dance Sport and the instructor's not bad. Apparently , was meant to have Michelle who was a contestant for SO YOU THINK YOU CAN DANCE? , but I think its because I'm a beginner.I've seen her but I didnt know she was that big and was it an honor to be near her ? Who cares , really.

I cant dance for nuts anymore . But I'm working on it .

Talking to mum about issues here just brings tears at random venues.
Wkend plans : To recuperate and regain motivation. Maybe I might just bunk over at my uncle's place and be studious and tackle the hectic week ahead.

With money tightening control , sorry guys, Im trying to have fun ,economically, and especially this week , after so much drama, I just want to sleep all frustrations away.

I miss my friends ...

I watched glee ep 9 and at the end , the whole glee cast sang a song for their friend who was going through a tough time trying to deal with her pregnancy and the stigma associated with teen pregnancy. Song was " Lean on me".

Imagine waking up at night , wanting to pee , and u see glass shards everywhere and the toilet had so much hair .

Housemates were dead drunk and created havoc. I had to sweep glass pieces off the floor at 2am and turn up for lecture at 9am.
Yes, I know its no different from me clubbing and reaching home that time and then going for class. What is significant is that I'm cleaning up after someone else's mess.

I'm sick and tired of it . The fellow just gets away from being drunk and who cleans up after it ?

I dont understand why some can just let it be .

And lab-mates were so impolite and rude.
When I wanted to clarify which stage of processing we were doing, " WHAT?"
And not even a Thank you when I offered help and took initiative.

This is reality , guys.

We treat them like gods when they land on our soil.
When we;re on theirs, we become worst off than dirt.

I'm physically and mentally exhausted because of having to put up with such mannerisms and behaviours from housemates .

Looking for a place to move in to is not an easy feat at this point in time.

It feels like I shot myself in the foot for wanting to explore and find greener pastures and in the hopes of a better career.

To further improve and go places. How much are you willing to sacrifice?

I miss

booze cruise !

My heart's a flutter because I found an awesome multi-purpose cleansing detergent which works on all surfaces and most importantly, gives the illusionary scent of cut oranges.

Amazing ! I was then, busy squirting the detergent onto every available surface .

On day updates : I cooked like the whole day and it really isnt freaking hard to be a housewife just, unfruitful because .. you're brain just functions rather straight-forwardly.

It's NOT hard at all and please, lest you're running a company + household like Ho Ching or somesort, then yes, it's kind of mundane being a housewife.

So, that being said , I still want to be driven mentally , else still be an utter bum and leech off my parents.

I have OCD with dirt and noise level and my friends sarcastically commented : "
so Charlene, what do you do during your wkeneds besides telling me I'm too loud ."

At times like this, I just freaking want to smackdown them.
Oops, not lady-like !

And , my housemates are such sweethearts, giving hugs and all around as we're all worried over our delayed periods.
I assure you, I'm just stressed up.

I miss limmintze and will miss nadia's birthday.

WEBCAM-WHORE and dont forget I'm still 3 hrs ahead of you guys.

LimMINtze : Happy birthday and I hope you had an awesome one with splendid memories to be kept and I wish for your dreams to stay big & all worries to stay small :p
I'll party + drink on your behalf as quoted by you to " go have fun " !
Sending via air-mail - Moet Chandon on your way soon . *you wish*

Day trip to mornington.

I pms-ed big time due to stress level high & location changes.
Went on a road trip to mornington to be exchanted by some maze garden.
If I had been toddling, I would have been utterly thrilled.

Cam-whored with my mum.
And had fish & chips. Earlier on had plate of fried rice and dinner , rice w dishes.
I'm keeping track of my food intake because I know I wont have time for gyming and since I walk almost everywhere, so no point wasting money on gyming.
Say, if I club every wk at least once, I will be doing cardio for 3 to 4 hrs.
And dance class signed up, I'll try for 1 hr first and also, sneak-ins for intense yoga.

So that settles my fitness, I hope. I just want to spend money on entertainment.

Why am I making a world-wide declaration now on my lifestyle?

Jack Neo's infidelity seems like a hoo-ha now.
Let;s not get caught up in it because all it begets is more publicity + fame.
As it is, I'm giving it some publicity.
All in all, such a worthless cry of attention. I seriously wonder what's wrong with society today.
Should we all keep crying for help and blatantly wash our dirty linen in public in the bid of retrieving fame/ attention ?

Shannonie if u're reading this , yr long-delayed reply will be on its way soon.

I;m dead beat , my loves. Hope all are well.

Long overdued sentiments...

Guess what, I still keep this safely , under my pillow. Op

This post is due to : Ds's suggestion to post more pictures of me cam-whoring but my face is still like that.

I still have not gone under the knife.

My over-dued partying pictures @ Crown Casino Melby.

The only night I ever felt uber cool-ness and part of VIP.

This is my part-time melby lover, who cooks extremely well & keeps me happy with all those romantic dinners for two. And, we helluva bitch alot.

just another manic monday .

Got up feeling like I've never slept.
My wkend flew by with tons of shopping,
If I had bought everything I wanted, I probably have to be a hooker soon. ;p

I am supposed to be doing my tutorial because I was shopping my wkend away.
BUT... here's where I found myself and I have class in 5mins.

What's your perception of success ?

I'm stumped for right now my once-seemingly clearly defined goal becomes an utter blur.

And I cant think straight , except wanting so desperately to finish the next lecture and then run home for food and then come back again for grueling tutorials and then head home to sleep what's left of my remaining day.

HUNGRY + TIRED.

DOWN UNDER (where/wear ?)

I'm back in the land of down under(wear).
Updates galore ..
CNY was spent sick + lazing ard with family.
Then came open-house , chillacks w dov + ds.
And .. ohh.. VALENTINES movie + dinner @ full house.
Awesome movie I must admit , I like julia robert's role.
As always, A-list movie actors & actoress in there were awesome.
Sorry, my vocab's limited.

I found out I missed out on Shannonie's msg.
Sorry love , we could have met up if I had checked my blog.
Funny thing is, I dont read my own blog and the comments section just somehow doesnt appear on my user-page.
But .. I will do what's necessary and...
From now on , latest updates will be here.
Be prepared, especially for tons of emotional ranting to be put up here.

Let's rewind to a week ago then.
Board the plane, exactly a week back, sent msgs of 'goodbyes' and 'see you again' but most of my lovely friends were sound asleep.
I DIDNT CRY !
On the plane, tried to watch a full movie, but no.. I kept flipping in between movies.
Cant remember what I watched cause I wasnt really paying attention.
Guy next to me was nice and good-looking but I didnt make any initiation to strike a conversation except say 'thank you' when he offered me food and things and helped me with i-cant-rem-what.
I thought he looked msian but then turns out to be PRC.
They're everywhere.
Thanks so much for being a considerate co-passenger, but the main point is ... my emotions were as dry as a dog biscuit, right there and then.

Arrived. Ultimate SIAN-ness hit me when the streets were all dark at 10pm. NO light and I'm reminded of where I am. As it is, its a friday night 2am and I'm at home typing this out, when I should be just leaving nightspots and walking in swaggers.
I;ll do that in wk 3 once my mum leaves for sure ;p
I'll have fun.

Then week flew by with lectures . Weather permitted me to dress like in Msia.
And I told mum, how fascinating it is for me to say things like " oh I'm going back Sg/Kl/Melb" ,
feels as if I have homes everywhere. BUT reality is, none feels like I truly belong.

An explanation ?

Sg- friends /mobility
Kl-family + friends
Melb-friends /freedom

Different country , different things and at the end of the day , what truly defines me is splitted into pieces of me of which these 3 countries thus far have been holding.

Thurs - Shopping
Fri-Shopping .

I bought myself a carabiner which says " Born to shop" , was looking for " Born to club" or "Born to be a bum".

And.. mum who has been here for a week with me , has been sleeping in my room , telling that at night when I sleep , I speak. And its neither freakishly scary nor amazing, she says its like I'm stressed out.

Over what? I have no idea.

But its scary to know , I speak when I sleep , who knows what dirty secrets she's heard from all those nights ...

With that ,
I probably need to get a voice recorder and record the sounds I make.
Maybe I might even cut it into a cd album.
Perhaps, even inspire mintze for her next composition.

As I attempt to indulge in deep slumber (I hope),

Ciao with much love !