suju

I have bipolar disorder. I get ditzy and high when I'm watching Super Junior.
And I get depressed and upset when I have face reality of my mundane life.
And it happens every minute.

My obsession is as such. I eat , sleep, drink, think, speak, dance Super Junior.
I cant believe how much they symbolise. They represent all the things that are so hard to have in this insane world. I cant imagine being thrown into a group and having to earn money TOGETHER. How many business ventures out there have gone bust when they pair up with even their own family ?

Without causing the slightest strain? Then again, they have such awesome marketing strategies. What with forming sub-groups to tackle different age groups and races- audiences. And even having a member from another country. How awesome.

They play on all sorts of emotions and I feel exhilarated and high just by watching them goof around.

It feels perfect. Too good to be true but I just go nuts over them.

I dont understand myself anymore and probably I'm truly insane.

Perhaps its because of what they potray which does not exist in my life that buys and reels me in completely.

And I allow myself to be bought. Just like that. Just because.

Of the own imperfections of my life.

If they continue what they are doing now, I'm sure their bank accounts will never be empty unless of course they indulge in self-destruction like some famous people when fame gets too much into their heads...

If one day, I have the opportunity to see them .. I wonder what I'll say.

Probably, please dance for me and then throw yr shirts at me and just goof around with me.

Or better still , let's have a sleep-over pyjamas party .